it had killed my dream.

ok, now I'm going to tell you all about what had happened on my exam day..

I know I always have a bad day... but that day wasn't a bad day...it's totally sucks!

After I went into the waiting room, I saw a lenq zeii.. heheh.. he play cello like "prawn". but he's too short for me.. *sigh.. ==

I really hope that he will be taller than me.. though hopeless to know him.. LOL

at least I saw a lenq zeii who taller than me ma to "saticfy" myself.

but the most important thing is he play music!!

actually, I like those guys who love music, good in academic and sport! Ahah!

you got the POINT.. hehehe~~

skip that! back to my exam story. *sigh

then, someone called me to wait for my turn at the exam room there.

I was so nervous man~~ I can feel my strong heartbeat clearly that getting faster and faster..

Then, I saw a girl came out from the room with a happy and satisfied face… I really hope that I can, too.

After that, the guy called my name and I went into the room.

Luckily, my examiner LOOKS like friendly and nice person. So I felt more relax.

But honestly, it isn't real!

Then, my exam started! I played the scales first.

all those scales that she told me to play, I TOYALLT forgot…

My mind was blanked and I don’t know how to play the scales.

Therefore, I just simply play it, because I really don’t have any idea about all the scales. *except for C major.

from that moment, I know I will score a terrible result.. all because of my SCALES!!! Arggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

After playing the scales and other, my mood was so down so down…

Yet, it didn’t affected my pieces.. because I know if my pieces score a lower mark, my whole result will just failed.

Therefore, I played it confidently and try my best.

Then, followed by my aural.. I was so blur on that time… @ @

so, something very embarrassed happened… Yet, I won’t tell you all about it…

and then!!! Finally my piano exam had finished!

But I didn’t feel like happy and excited… because I kept thinking about my scales…

I didn’t come out from the room with a happy face, but with a disappointed and sad face…

I didn’t blame anyone… I just blamed myself for not working hard enough on my scales and so on.

Besides that, I also very angry with myself… *sigh

I really hope that I can turn back the time and go back to the exam room play the whole thing perfectly.

In addition, I also hate myself for being so useless and timid.

although, everything had over and finished. But I still can’t forget and forgive what I’ve done in my exam!

On the way to the car park, I was telling myself big girl don’t cry because everything will be fine and alright!

But actually I was lying plus comforting myself. I tried to not cry in front of my mom. if not, dah!! something will happen.

Then, finally I cried in the hot spa room. *after the exam, I went to ecoparadise (hot spa) with my mom.

I was so suffer when I was crying silently inside the spa room, because my mom was sleeping beside me. *sigh

By the way, after that I got my mood back ; but I don’t know when I can get myself back.

I lose myself. Searching for the real me. the one who always loves to cry are not the real me.

I got two songs for everything that happened on me.

Bad day by Daniel Powter, describing lately; Climb by Miley Cyrus, to encourage myself.

conclusion: I will fail my piano practical exam. my distinction dream had destroyed.