Keep Searching without any directions.

suddenly I feel so disappointed on myself.

after listened to the River Flows in You played by Yiruma. my mind was telling me I'm a failure.

I thought I was the best! but actually I wasn't! :X NO NO NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm not that good as I thought! NO! I'm NOT!!!!!

honestly, I can't play really well. but I always comfort myself that I played well. D:

I know it's stupid and yet I can't do anything. kept practicing only make me feel more disappointed.

it's doesn't work. I've tried before. I just kept playing worse and worse.... ...

I thought that Music is my LIFE. but now I realize, actually I need more to achieve it.

I'm not that prefect that I thought. I didn't play as good as usual.

I don't have the 'feeling' anymore... all those 'feelings' had gone... disappeared.

where they had gone. I need them to achieve my MUSIC life. :) I need them!!

To me, those feelings are important. and now, I'm searching for them.

when I was listening to Yiruma's songs, I felt so calm and relax. :)

Listening to Yiruma's songs. :) To heal my wound.