11.09.2011

Honestly, I came here without any idea and my mind was completely blurred and depressed. It just left three weeks more to PMR. I told myself not to count down, but apparently it's difficult to do so. I am counting down everyday! ohh gosh.... kill my brain please.

As I said, I came here without any idea. I don't know what to blog actually. I merely feel to write something to express my untouchable feeling.

It is totally sucks when the nearer the PMR, the lazier I feel to study. I had fed up with all the books and studies. Why they have to interrupt my life? 

Indeed, knowledge is admittedly important, however we should get some fun from it, instead of study without any purposes and fun, it would be seriously bored and dumb. For example, history. D':

( My friends are mad. LOL)

Initially, I was having fun with History when I was Form 1, however after I had developed to Form 2, it had totally changed my mind and thoughts for History. Why it has to be so complicated?! O_O

It barely a history and nothing more to say. Besides the names are tremendously longggggggggggg! == speechless. I could hardly to memorize all the names. 

To be frank, I am gradually giving up on History. I had fed up! It is useless if I keep on doing the exercise for History, it isn't work at all! 

I am still get the low mark! The lower the mark I get, the more 'attacks' I get from it. It is so HURT! I can't take it anymore. I am going to faint. @@

I feel like going to burst into tears man. I feel so scared and afraid of books and studies. They terrified me. I couldn't get any nearer to them. 

They are so unfamiliar to me. I don't even want to know more about them! They would hurt me grievously. 

I know, I shouldn't have this kind of thoughts but I am scared! 

I study to fish for compliments. :x I hope people around me can be proud of me, if I get a 'flying colour' result. I always work hard, but sometimes my hard work did not come with my pay off. It disappoint me, they give me nothing but hopeless. *broken heart*

I lied, I said: ' I don't know what to blog actually '. But then, what I've saw after wrote is a bunch of words. == sorry. 

I am looking forward to tomorrow, because tomorrow is MOONCAKE FESTIVAL! YAY, I am going to celebrate it with my family and my auntie's family! woots!

My auntie's house area is going to have a party tomorrow! yay!! freaking look forward! lovess.