27.sept.11

Now I know, how many I had left out in my studies. omgoshhh! I can't believe PMR is on next Tuesday. How time flies?! O_O

I am trying to work my fingers to the bone, but somehow I am a little bit worn out. I've tried my best to do the best I can in order to understand every chapter however it just so difficult to 'digest' everything into my little poor brain. 

I don't know how do people study can be so easy, but mine is completely disaster. lollll They study as if they are having so much fun with them. ME? DISASTER and terrible.

Okay, honestly, that isn't helping at all to convince myself to keep on going to study. I am a dead duck. A horrible and awful dead duck ever, perhaps. I am actually peeling off my confidence. LOL

--skip that--

I skipped school again, but this time with a reasonable purpose. I'd rather stay at home study instead of going school and waste my precious time at there with no teachers in the class. == Therefore, I skipped school. Besides, I am not the only one, my gang as well. hehe 

PMR is just around the corner!? I ought to be prepared enough to start the fight and end the fight confidently and with no regrets, so that I can adequately enjoy my trip with gangs of friends. 

I must take down the 8 subjects and score a nice and pretty straight A's. I still persist to work hard on PMR although PMR is quite useless in my future life. :x

I did not mean to heaps verbal abuse upon the Form3 exam, yet everybody knows. SPM is much more important seriously.

ohh my, I couldn't skip my piano lesson tomorrow because I couldn't attend my lesson during the PMR week and the next week after PMR week due to the trip with friends. D': 

OKAY. I started to hate Wednesday, besides I had regretted of starting the lesson as well. It's not the teacher's problem, but me. I am the main issue of this stupid thing. I am the one who started everything and at the end, crying over spilled milk. 

I don't want to be bound by all the exam every moment when I play the music. Everything is pushing me so hard til I am gasping for fresh air.

All the pressures and stress on aiming a high score and grade in music. The reason I play music is because I want to become part of the music and make it part of my life as well. Somehow, it just couldn't go like how I want. 

*sorry for the boring music topic again* 

I feel lost again. 

dead. Bye!

//: tomorrow gotta inject again. Hepatitis B, the last injection. :)