HOT and COLD.

Yesterday night, I cried again. no reason for crying... damn stupid for me.

but this time, I didn't lock myself up in the dark room. :) it's a good thing to me.

I closed my eyes, listen to my MP4. start to relax and think something nonsense.

the tears just rolling in my eyes, refuse to lie on my face!

and yet when I wanna cry, the tears never listen to me.

I really want to 'moisture' my eyes, but don't know why, my tears refuse to.

yesterday, my music teacher asked me about the next year Grade 6 practical exam.

I hesitated for a long time. I don't know what to do...... Should I sit for this troublesome exam??

because the next year, I will be in form 3 need to face the PMR too!

the Grade 6 practical exam is hold on June meanwhile the PMR is around October.

SHOULD I???

I don't think I can handle the Grade 6 scales, because........... I failed my Grade 5 scales.

I need more time to overcome this frightening feelings.

I know I had tried my best in that time but my sister kept disagree with it.

anyway, it's enough that I know I had tried my best. I don't need other people's agreement. :X