EMOtional.

I was rather emotional recently. Easy to cry; Easy to get angry; Easy to behave like a ruddy girl.

I hate myself for behaving like this, I hate emotional. Or I am just an ordinary girl who is emotional?

Obviously, I don't know what I want to mention, because I cried today due to some reasons which I always rolling down my tears for it.

Em, what I can stand for myself is, I deserve it.

Lately, my emotion is out of my control. Especially when I met something touching, sad or even something that I endorsed.  My tears will obviously rolling inside my eyes. Why I am so easy to cry?

I used to be a very strong and a girl who will not easily cry. However, why, now I am behaving like this?

Call it as failure, I always mention it. I am a failure, a purely failure.

I want the old me back, now the one who is easily cry isn't me.  SHE IS NOT ME!

Evidently, the entire day I was in the blur condition. My mind is totally uncontrollable, kept thinking something which will grievously hurt myself.

I met many things today, NEW things which I never met before. Will it make me become stronger? or in the contrast way, make me become weaker?

I don't know, maybe someday, I will conscious about it. Now, no one will ever know.

Get my head back to the Numbers World. 

Death.