LOST.

Today is the first day of February, umm, still got 10 days to my Birthday... Excited about it? erm, actually no, because I am afraid of something.. No, is everything. 

I am afraid of losing everything at once. Something around frighten me, but I don't know what it is.

Losing my dearly friends, my passion to music, my family, my passionate in studies and so on, everything about me.

I am afraid of losing them! They are essential to me, they are my everything. If I lost them in my life, I would be very hard to go on without them, I will feel drastically lonely and despair.

Maybe I think too much, but it's not working on comfort myself to cope with it! What should I do?

Everything I am doing now is so........... unlike me! * I don't know what I am saying. ==

Just difficult to believe the truth. HARD TO BELIEVE.

I don't know what I am doing.... I lost my direction to go on my life. :(

Ohh my, I am a failure now.

I AM LOST.