Halo, BFF stress-ie.

Halo guys, I am back again with exhausted mind and body. I've been immensely busy with studies recently, and I was completely worn out! I wonder why, study and schooling can be so tiring. 

I yawned during every lesson and my heavy eyelids were trying so hard to not close it. 

I really have no idea, why it is so tiring! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! Besides, I am also suffering from shoulder pain. Maybe it's due to the heavy school bag. *cry, my school bag is heavier than the past few years. Moreover, the textbooks are also increased and thicker than before. That's something really bad! 

Teachers keep telling us, Form 4 and 5 are not the moment for honeymoon, I flinched. I had honeymooned * actually not really honeymoon, but just normal, no special effort on study.* for my past few years, and suddenly I have to regain my seriously hardworking life. That is a enormous change to me, normally Form 4 is the toughest year, because everything is still new and fresh to us, and we have to get use to it in a very short period, since the exam is around the corner! *die.

I almost burst into tears when I know the exam will be held in February because it's my bday month! I am immensely freaking out. I have so many things to worry, can teachers explain everything clearly? can I handle all the subjects? is everything okay?! Apparently, a NO-NO,  to me.  

I can feel the stress seizing my body and mind going to collapse me. Everything comes unbelievably fast and waken me from my comfortable dream. 

I could hardly handle everything without tuition or the help of my sista and friends. Apparently, I am not a genius. Literally, I am telling the truth.  *omfg, my shoulder starting to pain again. fk.*

I am suffocating from the stress, not only from studies and piano as well! My teacher told me, I must pass my G7 practical with distinction, because I had trained so much on technical skills and deserve to pass with distinction. *speechless.

Okay, it might be easy to say, but severely hard to accomplish. It isn't a bed of roses, guys. Distinction in G7 is not a joke, it is something serious and challenging. It requires courage and kinda effortful for me to triumph. I am lack of self-confidence, since I've seen distinction only for once. 

You know, Life is not always easy. It is like a roller coaster, undergoing up and down insanely. So you have no options but to get rid of it and walk out from the vague denouement. Overwhelm others in order to convince them and yourself, that you are not a failure. keep the faith. show them who you are. :)

It is not easy to possess triumphs, but at least you give yourself an opportunity to try.

these are what I've learnt, but still I flinched. 

Jam, loves.