Well, everything is going so wrong right now. It doesn't turn out like how I imagined and expected. EVERYTHING IS GOING SO WRONG! How could everything treat me like I am sinner?! I am so innocent to deserve this.
Things are pushing me to the death wall again. As you know, it isn't the first time they did this to me, somehow this time, I cannot take it anymore. It is not what I want, perhaps, I don't deserve to be treated like this. Exhausting schooling, tuns of homework and foreveralone. I should be living more satisfyingly, unfortunately, I am not. I am living so unsatisfying and it is seriously a mess and disaster! I did not mean that, I am not happy, but merely not satisfy with what is happening to me now.
I was being so blanked-mind, worn out and bad-tempered currently. The days I've gone through were immensely craps and ridiculous. How can I gone through days like this?! Is this my 2012? Can my resolutions be accomplished? Can everything goes on its track?! WHY THESE ARE HAPPENING TO ME?! WHY?????????????????!!
I had fed up with all these things and almost made me burst into tears. Maybe it's time to wake up from my imagination and bring myself back to where I suppose to be. I should be more realistic and summon up my blood to face the world with my sincere heart and soul. I need to regain my courage.
I am being so coward to confront the world which I think is heartless enough to bring me to death. I was in a funk and lost, when everything goes out of my control. I could hardly put up with all these disobedient craps.
Besides, there was a little surprise occurred as well and it might make some changes soon or later. I'm not prejudiced about this surprise, but it might turn out to be a menace to me. Alright, maybe I am being over protective for the sake of myself. Is this what they called, selfish? or what? I am selfish. Ya, perhaps, it might be correct, I am selfish in order to save myself from being hurt. That's why I said, I am being kinda protective! It is nicer to be heard as Protective!
I can see, the sky is getting darker. I am going to be swallowed by darkness and live with it. Loneliness comes with the darkness, since the day we met. Bye.
I love Chilam! ♥
You are awesome, handsome, talented and young looking! dream-man.
But I will never own you. haha, too bad. :') By the way, its just my dream which will never be granted.
I had face the same thing as you before but we all have to move on and forget those things we hate :)
ReplyDeleteAdrian, you are right. :) thank you for sharing.
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