doubts

somehow, i doubt myself. 

I broke my promise. I can't forget. I thought I was able to leave every feeling in the past, but things seem went wrong. How could I forget? It has been almost for one and a half years. 

I thought, im not serious and it was only my illusion, somehow the longer the time elapses, the deeper my feeling. Then, I thought again, time would make everything better, but, no. never. it made me suffer more. i was wrong.

sometime, i hate myself.

I am coward. I will never be able to summon up my blood and talk to someone 'casually'. Well, that's me. I can't be myself. 

I'll automatically adapt myself to the situation and not be myself. I stand behind, away from troubles. Easiest way, isolate myself.

I am different. 

Indeed, everyone is unique. But I am way different than others, they are different in good way, but me, no. Maybe my good is invisible, that's why..... 

i was wrong again. 

but,

mistakes make me stronger. 

People, they have good life, mine is a nice life too, but not as good as theirs, but this life gives me loads lesson than anyone, which make me stronger because i work harder. #ithinkalot. 

I should get out of this corner and move on. 

I am strong. I'll get stronger and defeat another me.

Jam. lovess