random: keep it alive.

there is a story behind every smile.

Halo guys, well, honestly I shouldn't be here right now, because I have only left one more day to my physics test. hmm, it is actually a pretty nasty subject, haha, because I could barely understand the whole topic. That's really a nasty war to fight. Anyway, now is too late to give up. And, the last friday was my first day of the final term exam, and I accidentally ruined it. Starting I was so so so so angry of myself, but then I realized it was useless to blame anyone. I was so stupidly careless and overconfident perhaps. Seriously, I know the answer, somehow my brain happened some errors and... demolished everything. I wonder why.. Surprisingly, I didn't cry! teehee, good thing. 

I am scared indeed, I am weak and defenseless. I ain't sure about everything is going to the right way and head to a bright future or whatever. I know what I want, I want to earn money to be wealthy, so that I can fulfill my dreams. I want myself to accomplish the goals, my dreams, because it is to show my power and strength. I understand the cruelness of reality, it shows me something that could weaken my determination. I am weak and defenseless, easy to be taken down. I have too many dreams, too many desires, too many aspirations, too many "too many". I am greedy, always want more and it sounds normal somehow, but when human's greed are getting stronger, it would turn out something horrible. A man's greed is like an abyss, endless. 

I want everything to end fast, I had had enough despite I am still young for living an easy life. People have to experience hardship to become mature and make use of our brain. Life is not easy and flooded with tears.?

Give up is a common word in one's life, but you are the one who determine the meaning of it. 

hmm, I found an interesting and meaningful phrase yesterday. I'm gonna make it as my blog's header after this stressful and tension October! muahaha, stay tuned! 

Found this awesome song! I love her, P!nk. She is gorgeous.

Jam. lovess