We grow up, we deal with more problems.

We ain't have the rights to stop our growth. It's a natural process of life, the only thing we can do is live our lives to the fullest. However, when time goes by and you started to grow older and older aka the "aging process", you will gradually realize that the older we get, the more problems we deal with. As a conclusion, number of problems is directly proportional to human growth. LOL

When we were a kiddo, we need not to worry about the living expenses, financial problems, homework, assignments, academic results, competition for job opportunity, how the outside see us, how we look, love issues, friendship issues, schemes, our future and a lot more. All we did were eat, play, sleep, have tons of fun and stay out of troubles, if we tried. I know I've said this countless times, but still, this is a fact that we can never change. Don't tell me you never thought of this when you were a kiddo. When we were kids, we wanted to be adults, because we were told that "when you grow older, you can only do this and that and so on". This which brings us to a high hope upon growing up as rapid as possible. Sounded a lot of fun when we were kids, but when this scenario really comes true, it's not anymore. 

I am approaching my 19th year of living on this planet soon, and 13 ago I had the urge to grow up, because it seemed so cool to be an adult. I feel so not contented to be a kid, I want to be more. I want to be a scientist and a genius (I was kinda weak in academic when I was young). I loved Science so much, yes loved passionately. I do love now, but not as passionate as 13 years ago. The passion has gone down so much by time and those challenging terms and essays. Yes, that's what we called childhood. Non-practical and naive. lol

A pure and dreamy childhood is what a childhood should be. We played outdoors activities, we walked around our housing area to play and discover more (practical educational system). Unlike now, they are engaged to gadgets as if  it has turned into one part of their body. wth When I see those kiddos are so attached to gadgets, I feel like snatching the thing and throw it hard onto the floor and ask him to get a real childhood. But, nah, it only plays in my mind hundreds time, lol, because it's not my duty to do so and I am not their's parents. It's their parents' duty to educate their children and teach them the right way to live a life, duh. Not sticking to their gadgets all day long and spoiling their children with luxurious treatments. It will only bring more problems to their future, because of their spoiled attitude and too demanding. It will probably ruin their lives, so please think twice before 'spoiling' your children with over luxurious stuff. If there is once, then there will always be the next and so on, then never ending.

I don't hate growing up, just the fact that we have to face more than we used to is kind of irritating and sad, oh, and tiring, exhausting. Perhaps, nobody likes to deal with problems especially it involves a lot of people, troublesome, slow in action, and so on. They will never compromise nor will they acknowledge their mistakes, nor they will change for their own sake of good name. It is really frustrating to confront all these, but we ought to, isn't it.

Next, is how we look and how the outside see us. When we grow up, most of us tend to focus on our appearances. You may not need to chase after branded stuff, but you will care more for your appearance than you used to. Then, some funny thoughts will come across your mind. Do I look good? Will it be too fancy? Maybe they think it is too fancy? Yeap, the word 'they' will automatically pop into your mind. We start to think about the others. We are bounded by those kind of thinking, too much doubts. I would not say it is materialistic, because it need not reach materialistic for this problem. This is life and it is tied with problems.

Life itself is not problematic, but we, the human being create problems for ourselves, unintentionally. 

Another task in life is, dealing with problems.


Recent addiction, kind of depressing (for me), somehow I like it

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