"Are you the one?"

Halo, I don't know what I'm gonna say. lol And actually I am worn out because of some vigorous exercise in this early morning, but I really enjoyed it and it turned out quite surprising to me. :) It's not the matter of win or lose, we gain more than that. The nearer to the SPM, the nearer to the end of my secondary school life. I am wondering, what will happen after I've graduate from my secondary, because I'll never be able to go back to that 5 years anymore, nor my 6 years of primary school life. I kept wondering. 

My life is writing down all my history, all my stories, which will never reappear in future. Time never go backwards, you know. And because of all my missing towards the childhood memories, I started to play my childhood games, like bubbles. Yup, basically it's one of the way to release stress, even though some of you might find it a bit childish, but who cares. The desired naive will never found in nowadays, as we have to deal with a lot of ordeals and challenges which will undoubtedly change our personality. It is normal, very not uncommon, because influences from anywhere will genuinely give us some big shot. I dream a lot, A LOT. And I don't give a damn to bother them, lol, because I know some of them are actually quite nonsense and not practical. Well, I do believe in 'impossible is possible', but Idoubt to apply it on myself, because I know myself very well. Psychologically, what we think about ourselves will affect our personality, perhaps? haha

I dream and think. I dream to become a trillionaire, an ultimately talented person aka genius, a super beauty, a superhero, and so on. I even dreamt to become an anime character. *okay, that might be a little abnormal, but not anymore. loll* Dream can be anything, there is no limits. However, when I think about all of them, none of them is practical. HAHA, maybe trillionaire will do? nah...... I don't know what will happen in future, but I hope everything is gonna be smooth and satisfying. Most importantly, I hope my dream can come true, I mean the practical one. - Fulfill all my desires. Not dream, but everything I wanna do and accomplish which I can't achieve right now. There is too many excuses that stop me from doing it. I really hope that those desires are gonna be fulfilled in future, because those are my dream since I was young. Whoa, on the second thought, I am not kid anymore, I'm a teenager. Time flies uh.

There might be a lot of unsatisfactory appearing within me which I keep them down at the bottom. I don't want to bring them up because I think it's useless to let people know. Or else people might be misunderstood my true meaning. I don't want this to happen, as it might take years or decades for me to explain these loathsome issues. So what's the point to bring it up, right? 

Looking back to my childhood, things were so easy and simple, unlike right now, everything is so freaking different and complicated. I hope I can be indifferent, but the price is too big. But someday, I will, when I have no burdens and worries anymore. I can be carefree and live my life in the way I want. 

Looking uneasily yet eagerly to my future, and ask,

" Are you the One? "

Jam. loves

怪咔！

我的人很奇怪，也自认是个怪咔。


我很喜欢大海。但是，海给了我一种说不出的恐惧，因为我不会游泳！

我很喜欢海风。虽然会黏黏的，可是很自由，完全没有约束的与我的脸擦肩而过。

我很喜欢海水。时暖，时冰的。我觉得，它和我性格很相似，阴晴不定。

我很喜欢夕阳。尽管它象征一天的结束，但也同时代表着另一个新的开始。


我无不从离开过矛盾这二字。我的小半生就这么奉献给了矛盾，难以做出选择的我，就是这么“ 钝 ”。
凭我的性格，是很难去选择一样东西。虽然要求不高，但我只求感觉。每样事情，我都凭感觉，因为我信任它会带着我去自己想要的地方。

我行我素，也很喜欢。因为这是我。

我以自己的方式去处理，有问题吗？我以自己的方式去生存，那又有问题吗？
我行我素，不需要被认同。

不过，就是过不了心里的那一关，坚持着希望会被认同，被看见。

我要他人看见我的存在，是多么的绚烂！

-完-

这里的片面之词，只是出于一时冲动，

所以别太在意。

Jam.

06.07.2011

Ancient memory.

Yaya, I am back. :) I really hate myself due to my stubbornness. I am in front of the comp again! hng, I am suppose to facing the books instead of comp, fb.... LOL

I was working hard for my studies currently, because I think my academic standard is quite far off from the PMR standard. I've started to feel afraid and terrified. I feel so terrible of myself. Why am I so useless?! I wish I am born with a genius brain. OKay, I assume that everyone wishes to own a genius brain. 

I was lack of sleep too! omgosh, my dark circles are getting darker and darker and almost turn me into a panda! Why would I lack of sleep? I also don't know why, simply so difficult to turn in. yucks, sucks.

I am a girl who don't know how to sleep well. LMAO. Genuinely, I scarcely know the way to help myself to get a better sleep. xD

Do I sound hilarious? Ya, I think I am. I'll automatically sleep when I get exhausted.

I am here to tell one of my primary school story, my little childhood.

Here it goes. . . . . . 

This ancient happened when I was 10 years old, a student of standard three, a little naive and idiot prefect as well. 

How was the election goes? I definitely don't know. Suddenly, teacher told me something.... Then, I had became a prefect. duhh...

How I use to control my class? HAHA, the most idiot way.... I shouted at the class all the time, just like a mad girl. Shout as loud as I can, on the top of my lungs! And I never copy student's name because I don't want to be hated. 

I stood in front of the class and shout, "QUIET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"  Yes, it worked, for a few seconds. They looked at me for few seconds, then continue their route, noisy and noisier, chaotic. LOL
What next?! I shouted again, hysterically, louder than before. == The same result I've got. *stupid me.* 

Honestly, I think I am stupid and brainless when I was young. You know what I've taught the monitor of the class? I taught her to shout at the class to be quiet. LMFAO! However, she failed to achieve my triumph, LOL.

Once, one of the student told me, "Jie Jie, your voice so powerful, make my ears so pain." Then, I told the student, " then, you better keep quiet and do your own stuff silently." Ya, he brilliantly did it. But after I left his seat, he continued to make noise. == *You deserve it, boy.* 

Prefects normally have to wait for the teacher to come into class, then they can only leave the class alone.

Once again, their class teacher eventually came into the class. She told me in front of the class, "Girl, next time better don't shout, later your throat get hurt and lose your voice. Besides, you might make others suffer too." I blushed, "OKay."  lol

But after that, I still worked with my own plan. SHOUT! *who cares.*

After a year of prefect, I quit. However, after proceed to standard 4, my position from a monitor had been degraded to a class monitor. Fortunately, nobody teach me to shout at my class! haha.

As you can see, I am so stupid and insane. ~_~

That's all. B Y E. Hope you enjoy it. LOL.

Jam.

28.06.2011

我。

我的寂寞，是我的伴侶。我的寂寞，是彩色的。我的寂寞，我一如往常。

我的悲傷，是我的影子。我的悲傷，是無聲的。我的悲傷，我無言以對。

我的自由，是我的約束。我的自由，是黑色的。我的自由，我一無所知。

我的快樂，是我的伴奏。我的快樂，是美妙的。我的快樂，我死無遺憾。

我的音樂，是我的生命。我的音樂，是獨特的。我的音樂，我愛惜一生。

我的愛情，是我的致命。我的愛情，是乏味的。我的愛情，我不曾擁有。

我的人生，是我的全部。我的人生，是無色的。我的人生，我痛不欲生。

-珮。

我是我，請別縱容我。

我是我，請別傷害我。

我是我，請去了解我。

Never know, Never Think.

Somebody told me I am cute. Ehem, but they are not mentioning about my appearance, of course, they are actually mentioning about my thinking. LOLs.

Most of them think that my thinking is cute because it's outrightly an outstanding thinking ever. LMAO.

I don't know why they adore my thinking, hmm, maybe inside of me is cute too. ;x Okay, seriously, I felt my thinking is unique too, I mean sometimes. 

Because I will consider something which other people will never think and see before, like the details. I really love to emphasize all the details because I knew nobody will ever notice them, so I am really a considering person. *opps.

Example: 

Jamie Leong fb status: You never know, cause you never think. 

Friend comment: but if you think~ maybe u wouldn't know too~so rather don't think~

Jamie reply: Don't think is much more better than NEVER. :D At least got think, but less. ;x dotss 

Friend's reaction: LOL!xD

She was speechless, she laughed, though I did not see her face, but I knew she laughed. I knew you are laughing too. ;)

Maybe some of you might think, "zadou..........." But I am sure you will laugh or even smile. That's good, I love to make people laugh, as well as hurt others. ;x

Besides, even some of them say I am elfin. == What?!! ELFIN?! Did I? hmm, okay, I should make thing clear. I am conscious when I am doing every epic stuffs.

Elfin? I think I am not, I merely want to make some hilarious effects, I merely want to make everybody laugh like hell. 

I love the ambience when everybody laughs together! It's so warm, happy and insane! So, let's laugh to together! ROCK \m/ :P

Broken Dream Life.

Okay, seriously I am suffering from the pain while updating this post. *suffering! I hate to be a girl, because of the pain that all the girls have to encounter it. =,= Hate it. 

You know, how is my dream life is?! Then I am going to tell you guys now, instantly. 

Honestly, it's very simple. 

First, it has to be no stress, no worries on my financial problem (I think this could be hardly become true) and so whatever on, and my life has to be safe, indeed!

Then, my life has to be free! Free from anything, hence I could do anything I wanted, and I can achieve a lots of my desires, such as go for gym with my dear friends (one of my desires, I know it sound funny, but it's true, don't laugh at me), reason, because I want to cut down my weight and get myself a slim body shape. Other than that, of course, I want to keep myself healthy! :) AHAHAHA, funny. I know you are laughing in front of the comp now. =,=

After the gym section, I want a very soothing and quiet ambience in order for me to read my storybooks or whatever. 

I have aspirate for this for a long time, because I really hope to get some enjoys from reading by the ambience. =,= Though, sometimes I really did got some of it, however it will never satisfied me. I need more...

Yea, actually that's all from me. I merely want a relax, silent and liberty life, no disturbs and no intruders and no bounds. Okay, who don't want this kind of life? Everyone does right?!

I just want to do everything which had stored in my mind for ages, and I just want to achieve it, make it true in my entire life!

That's all. However, I think it may be a long journey for me to make it true. Now, I am still only a little girl yet.

Ahh, Broken Dream. My Dream Life, sounds easy but hard to be.

About ME:

-I hate brainless people.

Just feeling like, talking to the brainless people make me feel brainless too, sorry to say that. However, acting brainless is okay to me, at least I know you are not brainless. :D

-I prefer friend more than boyfriend. :P

Because I think friends are more comfortable to me compare to boyfriend. :X Therefore, be my friend is better than boyfriend. HAHA. 

-Selfish.

I realize that I am quite selfish people. HAHA. I don't like people share something with me when I really need it. Like, when I was extremely starving, please don't share food with me, I will remember until the day I die. lol, just kidding.

-WEIRDO.

People who know me, will find out how weird I am. lol. Want to know how weird I am? Then, be my friend. XD

-Emotional.

Aquarius is a very weirdo and emotional people. Yes, I am Aquarius. The next minute, I could be very sad or maybe very quiet. OR, I could be an abnormally happy chick. LMao. Depends on myself. HAHA.  

- I hate liars.

I hate people lie to me, even though I lie too. Fortunately, some selected people can be forgave, but some, HAHA, sorry you are not allowed to be forgave. JERK!

-I always dream before I sleep.

hmmm, It is weird, but I always practice it before I sleep. I always imagine my dream before I fly to my dream world. Therefore, it's always a black screen when I am in dream. >< weirdo, unexplainable. 

-Always in a noob noob, blur blur condition.

To be totally honesty, I also don't know what happened to me. HAHA. Just blur and noob,  lost the direction. Then, just listen to the others' instruction. == saya juga tak mau macam ini de.. T_T

-I could be an Angel or a Devil.

If you are good to me, naturally I am an Angel. On the contrary, if you are evil to me, you must watch out all the time. :) Of course, I hope I can always be the Angel of you. ♥ 

-I prefer boneless food. :P
Because I don't know how to pick out all the bones. Besides, it looks dirty when you using your hand to take out the bones from your mouth. Further, I am lazy to use my hand to take it out. That's the main point! ><

The End. 

I had made a video for myself.

Hope you guys enjoy the video. Besides, I love the background music so much, 泪水华尔兹。

Erm, further some of the photos quite 'disgusting', so guys, prepare for yourselves. :P

Part 2.

Things I wish to have/ to achieve:

- Improve my piano and violin skills.

hmm, My piano skills are extremely suck. You can notice it when I was playing the Secret by JayChou. I love to play this song when I felt something missing. This song can totally express my feelings out. I like to play as fast as I can and as loud as I want! From this, you can know how sucks is my piano skills. XD

-Push myself to the books world, but not to become a bookworm.

I want to study hard, but sometimes, study really boring.. This fact make me keep away from study. If I keep going like this, I guess my result will getting worse and worse. HAHA, but who cares. :X

-Finish all my listed animations.

Especially my Inuyasha. ==

- To get myself a perfect body shape and skin. :X

My lower body shape is sucks! ohmygoshh... I have a big butt and a pair of long but brawny legs. :X I hate my legs so much, as well as my butt too. Moreover, I want a baby skin! My skin conditions are freaking sucks and worse. Therefore, I wondering to go for gym or facial treatments, but my abilities are limited. :S

- To have a rich boyfriend. :X

I have nothing to say. HAHAHAHA...

-Keep myself away from sadness, worries, disappointments.

Hmm, can I? 

to be continued.. ;D

I want to learn:

-Tennis, Squash, Golf, Skiting.

I used to play my own style squash with a pingpong ball and a small racket in front of the stair,when I was young. lol >< When I was young I really addicted in sports, but now everything is changing.. D: I become lazier and lazier. :X

-Drum, Guitar, Cello.

Besides, I am a music freak too. ^^Drummer is so cool, so do guitarist as a girl, Cello? it has a nice voice. However, my mom told me, Drum? very expensive; Guitar? learn violin better; Cello? expensive too. x__x These are all the excuses she would like to tell me.

-Speak in front of everyone with confidence.

Nothing to expend. :X

I want to be:

-A billionaire. 

I wanna be a billionaire so freaking bad. I WOULD like to spend money on outfits and yet I don't have the ability to do it. == I love to buy things, HAHAHA... Unfortunately, fact that can't change is, I am a poor guy. D:

-Professional Pianist.

When I was young my ambition is to become a scientist not a pianist, because I love Science since I was young. However, my results are suck. :X HEHEHE But nowadays, I've change my mind. I love music and I think I can play piano well, therefore I decided to choose music as my future field. lame reason. :P But anyway, I still got long long way to go.

-Braver.

I am a coward. :P I am not a braver as you guys thought. Maybe I look 'brave' sometimes, but actually inside, I am freaking sacred. lol, I can't even play piano infront of the public. That's why I want to be a BRAVER. lmao. I want to let everybody knows, how much I love music. ;D

-A Famous blogger. 

HAHAHA, reason is, I love to blog. ;P

to be continued.. :)

Let it be. DinoJam!

== dots, I saw the status just now, omg.

"‎Jamie Leong, ShunNing Tan, JinTong Tongg, Yee Xintien. I think we have to go school tmr. 有义气 dit lo. "

Babe Yinn posted it yesterday at fb. However, yesterday night, I didn't online. Therefore, I skipped school today. If not, of course I will go to school to stand by zhenxun's side.
Sorry guys, include zhenxun, the pity boy, the boy who always play with us. We are the one who put you in the situation, so sorry.
Haih, now apologizing also cannot solve anything, just hope everything will be fine, god bless please.
Anyway, it's the evilwoman's fault and the two "little devil prefects", too! XP stubborn thinking and attitude! f* off!

This morning woke up early as usual to practice piano. x.x
My piano skills is not like before, so pro, but now.... haih, sucks!
Anyway, I deserve it. Every day sitting in front of the computer or the laptop.
Even though, I was sitting in front of the piano, I wasn't playing the songs that my teacher gave it to me.
I played those songs that I found it in the net. x.x
That's my bad habit! Hard to change, because it's my style. *copy Tong. XD

So I deserve to be scolded or what.. Honestly, my teacher won't scold me, but I'm the one who scold myself. *lmao.
Speechless right? me too think so. x.x
However, I will try me best to give up my bad habit. *hope so. :D









I'm Dino Jam. Do you guys know why?
Because I am very "daisek". HAHA! Yet, of course, I will control myself from losing control when I met the foodsss... HAHA!

ME!

水瓶座 :
- 她们喜欢独立，崇尚自由的生活！
- 他的示爱方式很特别，有时候轻描淡写的让人感觉不出来，有时候怪异到会把你吓出心脏病。
- 水瓶在失恋的时候喜欢有更多的时间独处，无论是躲在自己的小房间里，或是跑到寂静的郊外去，还是呆在极少熟人的咖啡厅里，他们表面平静，其实内心却是在反复地分析这一段失去的感情，但是作为朋友的你也不要担心，理性的他们只要想通了也就没事了。
- 水瓶的爱就像国父革命一样一次接著一次 ( apa laa ni..)


【失恋後记】水瓶座会疯狂 shopping.
【情绪ＥＱ】水瓶非常冷漠，不讲私人感情
【隐藏个性】很个性化的水瓶座并不爱出风头


谈恋爱注定让别人受伤的星座: 第一名：水瓶座 
水瓶座对真命天子和真命天女绝对是面面俱到，呵护备至，可是对方如果只是过客，心里就会感到很受伤，因为水瓶座完全都不按照一般人谈恋爱的规则，掌控权在他的手里，如果他觉得对方的热情超出他预期的程度，他就会闪，而被闪的人就会莫名其妙，更令人受伤的是他也许对对方很好，可是却令人看不出来，因此跟水瓶座交往一定要有整个恋爱逻辑被颠覆的心理准备。


一等星座：水瓶座（思维怪异，非常人能及，异常冷静，行为古怪独特，捉摸不定。一个极其有魅力的外星人星座）

天涯海角 ♥

醒來後只是夢境 才發現身邊沒你
原來最殘忍的是想像力
醒來後清楚聽見 寂寞在耳邊歎息
尋覓安撫我的聲音

沒有你 我的世界失去了色彩
沒有你 我對生命失去了期待
沒有你 我寧願永遠沉睡不要醒來

我願意走過天涯飛過海角 ♥只要能夠守候在你身邊
我願意用這輩子讓你相信
這就是唯一 幸福結局

拉開緊閉的窗簾 以為能暫時抽離
陽光卻讓失落更清晰
我想要奪門而去
彷彿再多等一秒鐘就會來不及

沒有你 我的世界失去了色彩
沒有你 我對生命失去了期待
沒有你 我寧願永遠沉睡不要醒來♥

我願意走過天涯飛過海角 ♥只要能夠守候在你身邊
我願意用這輩子讓你相信
這就是唯一 幸福結局

醒來以後 我身邊沒你
最殘忍的 是想像力
清楚聽見 寂寞在歎息
尋覓安撫的聲音

我願意走過天涯飛過海角 ♥只要能夠守候在你身邊
我願意用這輩子讓你相信
這就是唯一 幸福的結局

幸福的結局♥ 我願意走過天涯飛過海角 ♥幸福的結局
這就是唯一 幸福的結局♥

这首歌，我献给所有我最爱的人

♥