If I die tomorrow.

Blatantly, I ran away again, from my revision. I was supposedly doing the revision for additional mathematics. It should be an interesting subject, unfortunately I found out, if you don't have any clue about the chapter, it's actually something boring and sort of nonsense, as if you are like an idiot facing some aliens. So, I decided to run away and come over here to blog about some random stuff. hehe

One of the twitter trend, If I Die Tomorrow. The first thing I think of it, was the song "If I Die young". Then I thought about what I'll do, if I die tomorrow. Tomorrow... is Sunday. A family day, but my mind was kinda out of that range, I thought about love and feelings. 

Then, I tweeted, If I Die Tomorrow, I'll confess. Seriously, I would do that, if I could discover the date of my death, because confess is something horrible. It requires courage. I am timid, I don't even dare to look at the one for few minutes. I am scared and shy. I don't know the way to communicate and handle those socializing stuff. I could just pee in my pants. :x

But if I were going to die so soon, I'll definitely tell the one my feelings. Since, I don't have to confront the one, after he knows I was falling for him. lolls I know, I am kinda stupid and hilarious, but true. 

Confess, is something I barely do in my life. Telling people about my feeling is hard for me. The communication will definitely interrupted by me, crying or laughing during confessing. That's bad. lols 

Then my friends replied the tweet, confess before you regret. Indeed, I agree. If I confess before the day I die, I would certainly regret and conflicting in my coffin. lols Regret happens all the time in my life. I am obviously wasting my life to regret for something I would probably gain a victory. Yea, just being stupid in my life. 

Feelings are unspeakable. Some of them are undesirable and troublesome. You would never know, what aftermath they would bring to you until the day itself comes to you. 

Confess or not confess? 

I don't know and don't want to know. But one thing I know, one day the courage will come to me and I'll confess, tell the one, hey i'm actually fallin' for you, before I die so soon. lols 

Why I am so afraid of confessing? Because I am afraid of being rejected. hahaha. 

I am not pretty girl and special enough to catch somebody's attention, so I'd rather keep quiet and be myself, hoping others like me will appreciate and cherish the way I be myself. 


Jam. lovess