Over.

ohhhhhh YAY! Finally, the exam is almost over, since tomorrow I still have last two, well hmm, unimportant papers, so it can be considered as over. I am so tremendously happy right now, feeling of exhilaration is flowing throughout me, all the burden are flowing out of me. thanksgod that I am eventually back to normal life, which no more hectic revision and lack of sleep life. 

You know, sometimes when you study too much, it's extremely lifeless. Everything keeps repeating without fun, just blur blur, dull and boring. Moreover, we merely attempt to memorize all the syllabus in order to pass the exam. We lost our incentive and initiative. 

This is so lifeless. But we have to carry on for some reasons, like our future and flying colours results. 

Nowadays, students study for results, all the fun and joy of knowledge have been murdered, and study without really knowing the true objective. What a pitiful study purpose we have. 

To be franked, I am so willing and LOVE to enhance my knowledge, but since all the 'rules and regulation' of study nowadays, my spirit for discovering more knowledge has been abridged. Well, it sounds I give up easily, generally yes, perhaps. Sometimes, it's really torturing and suffering to keep up the pace of others when you are trying to enjoy the joy and fun that knowledge gives you. Somehow, inevitably, you just couldn't make it through without thinking giving up the true objective. Everything is so dreadful and suffocating. How can you still be so slow while others are surpassing you?! Human...human... is so confusing. 

I love and would like to learn. Unfortunately, I have limited strength and ability. I do not have enough time to achieve my desires. It's really something regrettable, but I can prolong the time to accomplish my desires? I will take it positively. :) Or I need a appropriate time management? teeeeheeeeee Besides, I can't overcome the pressure and stress for study, as you know, people around me are very good and excel in study, always pass with flying colours. Me? No way, I couldn't be as excellent as them, because I have limited power. Too bad, my brain is different from them, theirs are so abnormally powerful. 

I am not belittle myself, but it's true. I am not as good as them, I feel so inferior. Even though, I give everything of mine for study, somehow the outcome as if being limited and regulated. I will never be able to reach the same level as them, indeed, it's impossible to surpass them. *sigh, I should not talk this on my blog, haha, I am telling you guys how terrible I am. 

Anyways, I should be happy, because the exam is over, and I have bunches of awesome friends around me. Even though, sometimes I feel a lil bit left out, however I am proud to be their friend. :) Left out because I am different from them, alienated.  

Jam. lovess