#2012TaughtMe

Yeap, today is the last Sunday of 2012, and tomorrow is the last day of 2012. I don't know which word would explain all about my 2012, because early of 2012 was a good start, but then changes happened between... then.... It wasn't that pleasant as I expected. My results is awful, and a lot of negative thoughts swirling in my mind.... AND, recently I fell down awfully and hurt my knees so badly. It was a stupid act actually. I kept wondering why would I jump? What was on my mind at that moment. To make myself feel better, I convinced myself that it is destined to fall before 2012 ends...? ( but I dont think it makes me feel any better, in fact it makes me look more stupid and brainless ) Okay, back to topic.

#2012TaughtMe  to conclude 2012 which is gonna become part of the history of my life.

My #2012TaughMe

1. Look up, hope isn't on the ground.
   I've forgotten I found this quote from which movie... It is really motivating and meaningful. I thought of this when I was really really really down due to my terrible results. I tried to ignore what I've been doing for myself which is wrong, because I believe that's what made all these happened. Well, I didn't mean to blame all on that truth, but in fact it's really bothering me that have those bad  habits in my life which would genuinely destroy my interest in study. You know, those distractions are so wrong to exist in my life. 
   But look up, you will found a bigger space to think, and a prettier scene to make you mind clear. The hope, will not grow on the ground, it's actually up there awaiting for you to reach for it. We don't give up easily for something which is unworthy. We clearly know our very own needs, necessaries. Besides, we also have to prioritize the important ones, but in the meantime we also have to take care our interests. Hope is everywhere if you know where to find it. It's useless to think yourself as a idiot just because of a little obstacle happen in your life. We fight for what we always pursuing, we don't just give up for unworthy reason. That's too stupid to do so. We act smart in a right way so that we don't live remorsefully and suffering all the time. Look up, you are stronger than you thought. Summon up your blood and walk through the door, get yourself a better place.
   
   
2. Crazy Thing costs a price. 
   Define, crazy thing....... To my opinion, crazy thing is which something you do without a proper thinking. In other words, it's actually a brainless act. loll Indeed everything costs a price, but crazy thing has a higher price because it's stupid and unreasonable to do it. ( ahh, what am I talking ) All the things on this planet come with an equivalent trade. No gain, No pain. However, on second thought, is crazy thing worthy to try? Somehow, it will give you a remarkable memory in your life, or maybe could change someone's life. I am not encouraging anyone to try to do crazy thing, but think twice before you really want to try to be crazy, because it might bring you to suffer. Like me, I was crazy and brainless enough to jump off from that high place, and in the end my knees hurt so badly and suffering from the pain. ohf, and the school is gonna reopen soon. gg. Well, different people different perspective, and of course different definition for crazy thing. Once awhile, doing crazy thing that will not hurt your body, is something fresh and new. It will actually activate something in your brain, brings out different idea. We have to refresh our brain once awhile by doing new stuff. But ensure your crazy thing is safe to anyone, but not end up make yourself suffer. But, bear in your mind, crazy thing costs a price. :)

hmm, I'm not gonna blog any 2013 resolution or whatever goal for 2013, because I think those are useless and ineffective to me. I always fail to follow my resolution, even though I list ALL out. LOL I do things when I feel like it, and I know my goal very well, To live a happy, freedom life without worries. To achieve that, I need to have money LOL ( just kidding ) That's my goal for my life. Not only for 2013. 

Moreover, 2013 is just part of my life, one of the year in my life. I do not need to set goals for every year, that's wasting my time and energy to come out with those stuff. What I need is for my life, not just part of my life. That's my style of living. I wonder why some of them prefer to live by confining themselves to so many goals? They prefer living that way? ... idk, teehee
I do thing when I feel like it, when I don't feel like it, I leave it there til I have the feel. LOL So, to achieve a higher level of "feel like it", I need to have a strong self-control, because to follow the correct path, control myself from walking to the wrong path is the priority. loll I can promise that, it will be a tough path. haha 

Anyway, my goal is always in my mind. What I want is to make myself comfortable with everything in my life, because I'm the one who is living it. I do not want to limit myself til I'm gonna die, complain, condemn or whatsoever. I live because I am born to this world. Simple life, that's all. 

I live the way I feel like it. 

goodbye, 2012. :)

Jam. lovess