Today isn't a marvelous day to me, it's outrightly SUCKS! I hate myself, cause I am a purely failure which I always mentioned.
I got a bad result though I had expected early, however I still can't accept this fact. I never expect I will got such a low marks in my Maths paper 1, even though I knew I didn't put much effort on it. Yet, I really didn't expect that...... will happen. Maybe I expect too high on myself. =o=
Then, followed by my BM. Although I had knew my paper 1 marks early, and yet how are going to accept the truth?! It's so agony to me. Hence, I cried again, at school. How ashamed I was.
I used to be a strong girl, who will not cry easily, but now, I was different from that girl. I am gradually changing myself, inside through the outside of me.
I must told myself not to cry for it, but it's hard to control. When people were talking about their results or whatever, my tears will uncontrollable rolling down from my face.
All negative thinkings will seize my mind, they took control of my mind, instructing my tears. I was trying hard to make myself be stronger, however it's not working at all! I am a failure. My EQ is too low.
Maybe I am the one who expect too high, that's why when the heartless truth came to me, I felt seriously despair.
The conclusion is made, I deserve everything, because I didn't do well and prepare for this exam. It's a punishment for me, as I felt so despair and cried a lot. ==
By the way, thanks to my darlings who are trying their best to make me happy, help me to find my smile and laugh back. love you guys, I really appreciate it. loveya-all.
I am getting better now, therefore let's hope tomorrow will be a better day. ;)
The world stares while I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they are everywhere
They don't like my genes, they don't get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
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