Life lessons are harsh.

Photo taken at Halong Bay,
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Hello everyone, hope you are doing well in life. Today is not going to be any interesting post, I'm very sorry if you are looking forward to it. It's just another random post that I just wanna sit down and have some personal time with myself and my blogging life. And of course you, if you are really reading this. haha 

Recalling to my old-self like 10 years ago, a lot of changes did happened. Puberty does did something to me. hahaha And of course not only puberty, the world itself changed me loads. And those changes had become part of my growth. Sometimes, I just want to be myself, the old-self where I can REALLY be genuine. However, the world tends to refuse that determination and forces me to change. And I had to, even though I do not want to change because I like how I used to be. Ironically, it couldn't happen, because the influences under myself are way too strong that in order to survive in this world, I have to change myself and adapt to whatever that comes to me. 

Fragments of life - whatever it is.

Fav shot, taken at Batu Ferringhi@Penang.

Hello everyone, I am back after one month, because last month is the most hectic summer semester month. *faint* While people are having fun during their summer break, but me had to do some extra subjects to get sufficient credit. fml yo. The last semester was kind of crazy and boring at the same time. lol The lecture part is always boring, yet I did find some joy doing the presentation with my coursemates and that's the only glimpse I could find throughout the semester. Anyway, I am reaching the end of my year one, how time flies and it's damn scary. 

Realizing I am no longer a teenager makes me cringe. Realizing I am closer to the society makes me cringe. Realizing I have to face more masks in the future makes me cringe. Realizing I have little true friends as time passes makes me cringe. The unknowns and facts are relatively insane. By having more knowledge of those, is creating fear that stops me from moving forward, and rather stay in comfort zone. Yes, I am that kind of people, sometimes. lol whatever x

Regrets are pains in ass of life.

I'm back after more than one month of abandon. Sincerely apologize to erm, no one? that read my blog posts. lol Because I wasn't in the mood to type out my thoughts because there are abundance of them swirling in my mind. It would be exhausting to puke them out of my mind, haha. Anyway, wordy post has returned. 

I have officially finished my Grade 8 for both practical and theory of my music. Well, kind of, hopefully I pass my theory examination which has ended two weeks ago. Otherwise, I will need to retake, which I reluctant to do so, but I ain't got choice though. Anyway, then it comes to a very difficult moment and I hate to encounter this in my life. Should I go further or no? It actually came across my mind after I've done my practical. However, I just couldn't make up my mind. I am scared. What if I can't keep up with the standard of Diploma and I could be wasting my time and money. All those different kind of thoughts kept popping in my mind and a war just started inside. Moreover, I have to make sacrifices as well. My academy is getting heavier and more stressful than previously, what if I can't spare my time for my practice? And when it comes to practical, practice is the key to get the best results. That's why I was stucked there and I hate putting myself in such situation where I couldn't make any decision, because I'm scared.

Being Random and "Eat Me".

Hi people, I am back with another random post. hahaha Time flies really fast weyh, it's already October and I still have no idea what's going on in my Degree life. wtf. Hopefully I made the right decision for taking the September intake, because it was too sudden for me when I was still in my comfort zone. Honestly, I wasn't ready to get into degree life yet, but I don't want to wait for January intake, if so my life would be completely idle until that time.

Anyway, the beginning of my degree life was kinda sucks, everything was confusing and unorganized. It was because my college started the course one week earlier than the actual university in UK, so the teaching materials weren't send to the tutors aka lecturers. zzZ So basically, the first week of my course here was  basically wasting my time, but I ought to attend the lessons. bleh. In case you're wondering which university of the program I'm taking currently, it's perhaps a uni you'll never hear before, so it's unless to tell you anyway. hahahaha By the way, I'm taking Business Management program, in case you want to know. 

However, until now, I'm still very confused and lost of what I'm ought to do for my courses. There is no examination for my first semester, which is weird to me, and I am so not used to this kind of style. Moreover, I have a bad relationship with assignments, I hate them throughout my life, seriously and my first semester are probably assignment base. fml please. I was thinking to take UOL aka LSE program which is 100% examination base, but the courses they offer aren't my kind of liking, so I chose another one instead. LSE..... and my current one..... Got a enormous difference eh. *cry* Useless to cry over a spilt milk. 

Okay, I've finished my babbling, so let's have some foodie update. Well, this cafe probably most of you guys have tried before, I know I'm really outdated, I know. But I just happened to go there for some girls talk with my cousie and sisters. Then, I thought I might not need to bore your guys with my crap talk, so let's get to the food thing.

Eat Me Artisanal Desserts

23, Jalan Telawi 2

59100 Bangsar Baru

WP Kuala Lumpur.

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Eat Me Iced Tea 

It has a really nice lavender aroma, which I kinda like it. Very refreshing and best drink during hot weather. :)

Reclaimed and Lose - The Magical Moment.

Halo people! I am back with another post without food. Sorry, for letting you guys down, because I wasn't really into or have the chance to go for food hunt. haha I was working part-time and my degree is gonna start on coming Monday, wish me luck. Hopefully most food and travel posts in future!

Recently, I was completely in confusion, trapped and struggled. In short, I was lost. I wasn't sure if what I am doing now is good for myself, because something popped out in my mind which turned me into confusion, again. I found my real passion, well, to be honest, should be confront. I always try to convince myself not to think about it, especially during this crucial moment, however I just can't. It kept popping into my mind, like a reminder. But for real, I just can't pursue it, I have no ability to support my passion, which has worsen the whole situation. And that's why, I struggled so much, well I do struggle a little bit now but not too much. haha There is more... Seeing friends are able to pursue for their dreams, indeed, I feel really happy for them, but there's just, ya'know, separating is hard. I was as if having a short-term depression until I eventually released myself.

While I was playing my piano in this afternoon, I felt something magical happened. I felt my soul was released, freed to roam. I was trying to play LuXiaoYu by Jay Chou, but I could barely remember the melody, so I closed my eyes, like I used to be, letting my fingers to run freely on the keyboard. Then, all the notes came into one piece, the melody started to run, the song was finally completed. At the same time, I was released. I know it sounds really weird, but it does happen. That's how the magic works. It's just magical, isn't?

In the dark I see no one, but I feel myself. Then, I found my freedom. During the time of playing piano with my eyes closed was indeed awesome, I felt so light and just living at that moment, enjoying my playing, just simply happy. It had been a long time since I felt so contented, lively and simply happy. Because that's how life should be.

Again, music saves me. Even though it doesn't last long, but still everything starts to fall into place, slowly. I do feel better now, at least I know I have something rest on when I need it. When in the darkness, I somehow feel more secure and confident, because it's only me. Well, maybe by putting myself in the dark, can make my mind focus more? Then, be able to put everything into one piece and figure it out. lol Or, maybe I just need to spend more time with music to give me more mental support. hahahaha I sound so pathetic. Well, maybe it's true? 

I shall give myself a break, well, I ain't got time for a break now, degree starts in real soon. And I guess I have enough of break just yet I clear my mind. lol Too bad. Well, life doesn't always go the way as you wish, just like my passion. However, I believe maybe, perhaps, one day I will be able to pursue my passion and experience different things all around the world. 

That's all, I hope it doesn't bore you, even though it does, I know. hahahaha 

Take care, love ya'll,

xoxo,

At Last.

Okay guys, I'm eventually back here. Not sure if I'm considered have finished my Foundation course, because my results is still pending, so yeah. I feel kinda lost right now as I have seriously no idea about the next stage of my life. LOL What I really want deep inside can be hardly achieved now as some restrictions which are out of my control. I know what I really want to pursue, just that I am unsure about the ways, the possible ways which I can reach for. What I lack of is my courage. I am always afraid of approaching something risky, okay in short I am a coward. All the disguise I've been having is really tiring, but at the same time, it's my instinct to do so. It's my human nature after all. Sorry to have you listening to my craps, but still life is just the way it is. Okay, I've gone too far now. 

So far, my foundation life wasn't so bad, except for few real damn challenging but fun assignments. I've met some crazy funny b*tches who have given me so much joy and pain in those days. hahaha There are some good and bad experience indeed, it did bring me anger and disappointment, but I've learnt my lesson well. Sometimes, do not make assumption too early, it might bring you another disaster to your life. hahahaha I am so lucky to have this group of coursemates with me for the whole courses, without them, my foundation life would be so boring. Love ya'll! *(◕ε ◕｡ ) muacks*

Next, I guess the wisest decision I've made so far is changing my hair style! hahahaha I was so eager to get a LOB (long bob) for quite a time, so I decided to confront my final examination with a new hair look. I was so happy and satisfied with the outcome, and I'm so in love with it! I would never reminisce my long hair, lol because it was so damn troublesome hahaha. I guess I will stick to my LOB for a long time, because it suits me quite well. It's so easy to take care and I really enjoying the length, no more 5-10 minutes of blow drying! phewwwww I feel so happy and lighter after the hair cut! I guess, I've found my kind of hair look. lol

After the haircut. wheeee~

With a little bit of curls at the tips.

WARNING. Grumpy post ahead.

"Life doesn't go the way as you wish, unless you give in some effort to make it happen." That's what I've been telling myself, but still 'me' doesn't want to listen. You know that kind of conversation with yourself, where you're basically like those cartoons, "angel me vs devil me" kind of mind conversation. haha But still, I always defeated by temptation due to my weak self-control. *sigh* My life has been a war for me, "me versus me" kind of lame thing. I thought life would go the way I want by mere thinking. I was so naive in a good way, but stupid in truth. Until now, I do have that thought swirling in me, and I do tend to follow its advice, yet I am trying very hard. That kind of loathsome struggle is really killing me, as if it's trying to tear me apart. 

Trying doesn't always win, and it doesn't mean that you're not trying hard enough. It's just part of life. Life is not a drama, but it is kind of a like a drama, the only difference is life has not script to follow so anything could happen and cannot be rewrite. I am not brave enough to go wild, but I really want to. I am always trying to be sane to follow my plans and I've always have backup plans for myself. Everything must go accordingly so that I can have a sweet dream at night. What a pathetic life. I guess what I'm really lacking is a piece of sh*t guts. zzZ

Okay, I shall try to update more interesting (food)photo posts next time, so not to bore you all. I'll try my best! *fwighting*

take care, loveya'll,

xoxo,

An Escape is All I Need.

“ Well, it's been awhile again, sorry to all imaginees for leaving my blog idle for such a long time. It has been a really damn hectic month, including this week and following weeks. My last semester finals are coming and I am so weak in my spirit to do anything after the research paper. This Friday I will have my IT presentation to do, but now the assignment is left idle, and there is obviously less than a week from today. LOL I just don't have any energy to carry on, especially for this subject. Ok I know subject discrimination. :P

What should I do after this? - This question remain unanswered for a long time. My mind is exhausted after all this long weeks and months. I am so helpless. There is no one trustworthy available for me to rely on. What a shame. What a sad life I live for now. The war I'd been through was so lonely and tiring. I need a break now for my mind, soul and body. I just want to leave this city as I always want to do. I want to leave all this behind for now and let my mind goes wherever it wants, let my body roams freely as it has been desired to, let my soul to be freed from its cage. 

It will never happen for a long time, what a short release it has. Life has always been like that isn't it? Living here is trapping my soul in a thorns-fenced cage. Every time I try to escape, it hurts and bleeds. Just like the pain I'm feeling now. My desire to escape is beyond my capability, however the reality is torturing me, it's about to tear me apart. I'm trying to run away so hard, yet I'm still remain at where I've started. ”

That was the post I wanted to post before Friday, but then due to that freaking time constraint I couldn't post it on time. My soul was craving for a release, yet it was still not be able to be freed. 

Finally, I can rest for awhile now. But then, the following week I'll have my last semester's final examination to be encountered. fml. Anyway, I will still grant myself a little break, so that I will not collapse before the final hahahaha I deserve a better reward. :P

Before I go, a tea recommendation to ya'll! I am craving for this tea so much! It's located at Pavilion@TokyoStreet. OMG Even now my mouth still can recall the aroma of the roasted green tea. Gonna try Matcha next time! This is highly recommended to tea lover! Moreover, they do sell match ice-cream as well! ;) AHHHHHHHHHHH I want the Houjicha Latte now! D; Damn it, someone please deliver this to me now.

Houjicha Latte! 

Okay, that's all for now. I shall start watching The Hobbit; The Battle of Five Armies. I know it's an old movie, but I ain't got time to watch until today. Haha I will take it as a reward to myself.



Love ya'll, take care,
xoxo,

Another random puzzle.

I feel like writing something, but my mind is just blank and plain. lol I hate this feeling when I want to do something yet my mind isn't cooperating. Weird right. lol This is definitely not the first time happen in my blog or in my daily life. hahaha 

My life recently is just clueless. I'm gonna sit for my music practical examination in next Tuesday which I am totally unprepared. I had not been practising my piano for almost two weeks, and my big day is approaching terrifyingly. I don't know why am I behaving like this, which I myself know it is really wrong and irresponsible, but I just lose my motivation, my passion which have turned into mist. I don't want to make my interest into a burden, I hate examinations, any kind of that. Well, who would love it anyway. Whenever examination strikes, I feel it's a burden on my shoulders and I can barely breathe. *I am finding excuses to not sit for that exam* lol I am seriously, regret so much for making that decision, and I should have chose self-study. whatever, it will not change any single fact that coming Tuesday is my big day. Another reason to moan over my sad life. 

The next thing is I hate myself for being so weak. Weak in controlling myself, my desire to spend money. fml so much right now. I am so into beauty stuff nowadays. hahahaha And I guess I've spent a lot of my "possessions" on my collection. I am student ya'know, so I have barely extra money for that, and so I have to sacrifice my saving. fml Okay, I am feeling really guilty right now. damn. So much wanted to punch myself in my face. lol

OKAY can you stop crappin'.

I shall convince myself that, life is not getting harder, it is just becoming a little different than the old one. And I have to overcome the varies to make it comfortable for myself to live. So, I need to be stronger.

My fav ^

keep moving, people.

take care, love ya'll

xoxo,

Today's special, is nothing special.

Halo my imaginees, it has been a long time since my last post about my trip to Crab Island. hahaha There isn't much to talk about my recent life, except super packed time table. I've got a good news which is I pass my ABRSM Grade 7 Theory examination! Yay! What a great relief! But now more headaches are coming, my Sales presentation deadline and my music practical examination! I am so lost right now, I have mere idea about my presentation and my pieces are getting worse. wtf I have limited spare time for my practice. Moreover I am exhausted after my college, I ain't got anymore energy to focus on my piano practice. It brings to me another level of stress now, and ya'know I hate stress a lot, well, I don't see anyone likes them in any way.

Ohh yeah! Another thing is I watched Avengers: Age of Ultron yesterday! Happiness overloaded now! Well, to be very honest, I think the most exciting parts are shown in the trailer, lol. But of course in order to clearly know the story, the movie does do its job well. Some slow motion fighting scenes, I somehow find them quite funny which I don't know why. But as usual, some humor are still blended in well. To me it's like every thing happens so quickly and a bit messy which makes it weird. lol, I've no idea what I am talking now. Maybe I missed some part in the first few minutes, because I went in late, haha. But I don't think it makes a huge difference, hopefully. Still, worth to watch! ;)

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I always want to run, I want an escape to a my kind of innisfree, but I have too much worries to bear. Perhaps, I am not brave enough to take the first step, because I am afraid of the aftermath of my action. But deep inside my heart, I struggle and hope to be freed, then I would be roaming freely in my wish of anywhere. It is really sad to see my soul and body are bound to the reality where I am powerless in control. I am lack of courage that would take me to my land of innisfree. I want to do and take control of whatever I want in my own wish, but life won't be easy to take it in. It loves to go for adventures, and undergo some ordeals to strengthen itself, somehow it tends to forget to enjoy the time it is left with after all this 'experiences'. And it tends to make me believe that I do enjoy the 'experience' it gains, which I have no idea if I really do remember its belief. I just want to escape, to be genuinely free, and letting go of those boundaries, I don't want to get caged in the reality. I just want to go and explore. All I want is peace of mind. 

The world is getting so competitive and I just want to leave the race. It is so tiring to be part of it, choosing not being competitive isn't meaning to lose, in other words it means strong, because I don't need to be competitive in order to prove my strength or win the race. *think-face* However, another question, why do we need to prove our strength or win the race? Is it really necessary? Or is it important? What is the intention of being competitive and proving ourselves and winning a race that would take us to nowhere? Have you really think about them? 

Okay, these thoughts are making me really emotional and it's overflowing now. lol I will leave the answers to you, because everyone has their own ones, and my answer, they are burdens.

loveya'll, take care,

xoxo,

Options, with courage.

Halo imaginees! *sigh* My final examination week strikes again, it's on next week. As usual, unmotivated before finals. HAHAHAHA Most probably because I had my music theory examination on last Monday, then I felt that something big had over, so I tend to loosen out a bit. Well, not a bit, is a lot. *guilty* Anyway, it had been a long time since I had my theory examination, excluding the recent one, as I had skipped two grades I guess. *smirk* Not meaning that I am smart or good in theory kind of thing, because I am too lazy to go for every grade. So, it was a bit strange to me during the examination, but it is a great relief when I walked out of the examination hall, because I am really sucks in that kinda thing, but bigger things are coming ahead, which are worse than that. First is my finals, and next is gonna be my practical examination, which I don't wanna comment on that. ya'know. *lmao* 

To be very honest, I've been slacking for two days after my music examination and I am really enjoying the days. It feels so good for not doing anything, but just slack, as if nothing bothers you and just live your life without needing to worry about your duties. However, I know now isn't the right time to enjoy, because finals are on next week. Despite three days, somehow deep inside me is telling me not to bother so much! hahahaha that evil side of me, and frankly I am listening to 'her', because I'd been doing too much for my life. HAHAHA which I am supposed to do, but still... Okay, I am denying everything. Fine, I surrender. 

Okay, this post is obviously crapping about my procrastination and incapability of self-control. Sorry for wasting your time on this. Real thing is coming next.

Recently, something came across my mind. 

You don't use others eyes to define who you are. Why would you care so much for something unworthy? Why would you want to define yourself by using others definition? Why would you want to define yourself? There is no need a definition for you, because you are who you are. I know, most of the time we tend to prioritize other's opinions before ourselves. That's part of humanity which is true but in the meantime sad as well. There is no need to label ourselves nor label others. You are who you are. Especially, some people they tend to judge people who love wearing makeup and well-dressed, which I find those people are really annoying. You are no one to judge people who love doing what they want. And your disgusting face is polluting the world, yes, I am being judgmental here, because you started it in the first place. :P *okay I am being childish here* hahaha, it's true, but useless. 

It's really sad to realize that we can't do anything to them, but there is one thing we can do, which is to make ourselves a better person, by doing what we love the most without minding those extremely judgmental people. YESH! Doing what you love and right, makes you a better person, and don't give up in pursuing your dream. Do what's the best for you. You are who you are and you know who you are.

Life is meant to be filled with ups and downs, where you will be the one who compose all the parts of your story. You have options, but you need courage to make the decisions. That's the most arduous task in life, but we all ought to undergo it. 

Just accept the fact that this world is judgmental, but 

Don't judge people with your eyes, judge with your wisdom. 

Then, hopefully you will find it interesting to know the positives of humanity.

That's all,

loveya'll and take care,

xoxo,

I get stars in my eyes.

Today I woke up in a warm yet sunny day. It was a quiet morning at 11.30am as I was alone in the house. lol My family went for working, schooling and shopping *my mom*, except me. Why? Because out of the five weekdays, Friday is my only day off for my schooling, which always bring me a lot of joy. Yay! I love spending quality time alone and the quietness and peaceful ambience. That's why alone isn't a bad thing to me, *sometimes*. 

The tranquility is the best medicine for stressed out people. Well, maybe it can't help to solve your worries, but at least you're free from them for awhile. Sometimes, taking a short break isn't a bad thing, because stressing out yourself isn't gonna help you in any way. Your brain needs some space and time to take a breath as well. You will never know what you will get when you are on a break! Of course, I know, most people will tend to lose themselves when they are taking their breaks, however, please do remember to get your feet back to your duties after getting enough of rest! Don't get too carried away by your 'tranquility'. 

Most of the time, what we need the most isn't solutions, but somehow a private quality time and space. Oh, and get your hands off from your phone. LOL It will greatly become your distraction. Spending time with yourself will actually help you to understand yourself more as you can only focus on yourself. Moreover, it helps to calm yourself and perhaps, you may get yourself back after such a long exhausting journey you've been through. After getting yourself charged with positive energy, please do move on and fight for yourself and your goals. 

My ultimate goal in my life is move away from this busy and perilous city. I just wanna live my life peacefully and spend my time with nature. I love discovering the nature, because to me, nature is a huge mystery. Living in jungle is an alternative to me. *don't judge me* I don't mind living under some primitive conditions or rural area, because in my point of view, sometimes overly developed isn't a too-good thing. Perhaps, I might find out some eco-friendly yet advanced ways to live my kind of life. Anyway, I don't think by deforesting those reserve forests for an eco-city development is gonna make you eco-friendly in any way. I am not trying to argue anything, but to me, I don't think by doing so will contribute anything to mother earth and nature.

It's on a slippery slope

xoxo,

We grow up, we deal with more problems.

We ain't have the rights to stop our growth. It's a natural process of life, the only thing we can do is live our lives to the fullest. However, when time goes by and you started to grow older and older aka the "aging process", you will gradually realize that the older we get, the more problems we deal with. As a conclusion, number of problems is directly proportional to human growth. LOL

When we were a kiddo, we need not to worry about the living expenses, financial problems, homework, assignments, academic results, competition for job opportunity, how the outside see us, how we look, love issues, friendship issues, schemes, our future and a lot more. All we did were eat, play, sleep, have tons of fun and stay out of troubles, if we tried. I know I've said this countless times, but still, this is a fact that we can never change. Don't tell me you never thought of this when you were a kiddo. When we were kids, we wanted to be adults, because we were told that "when you grow older, you can only do this and that and so on". This which brings us to a high hope upon growing up as rapid as possible. Sounded a lot of fun when we were kids, but when this scenario really comes true, it's not anymore. 

I am approaching my 19th year of living on this planet soon, and 13 ago I had the urge to grow up, because it seemed so cool to be an adult. I feel so not contented to be a kid, I want to be more. I want to be a scientist and a genius (I was kinda weak in academic when I was young). I loved Science so much, yes loved passionately. I do love now, but not as passionate as 13 years ago. The passion has gone down so much by time and those challenging terms and essays. Yes, that's what we called childhood. Non-practical and naive. lol

A pure and dreamy childhood is what a childhood should be. We played outdoors activities, we walked around our housing area to play and discover more (practical educational system). Unlike now, they are engaged to gadgets as if  it has turned into one part of their body. wth When I see those kiddos are so attached to gadgets, I feel like snatching the thing and throw it hard onto the floor and ask him to get a real childhood. But, nah, it only plays in my mind hundreds time, lol, because it's not my duty to do so and I am not their's parents. It's their parents' duty to educate their children and teach them the right way to live a life, duh. Not sticking to their gadgets all day long and spoiling their children with luxurious treatments. It will only bring more problems to their future, because of their spoiled attitude and too demanding. It will probably ruin their lives, so please think twice before 'spoiling' your children with over luxurious stuff. If there is once, then there will always be the next and so on, then never ending.

I don't hate growing up, just the fact that we have to face more than we used to is kind of irritating and sad, oh, and tiring, exhausting. Perhaps, nobody likes to deal with problems especially it involves a lot of people, troublesome, slow in action, and so on. They will never compromise nor will they acknowledge their mistakes, nor they will change for their own sake of good name. It is really frustrating to confront all these, but we ought to, isn't it.

Next, is how we look and how the outside see us. When we grow up, most of us tend to focus on our appearances. You may not need to chase after branded stuff, but you will care more for your appearance than you used to. Then, some funny thoughts will come across your mind. Do I look good? Will it be too fancy? Maybe they think it is too fancy? Yeap, the word 'they' will automatically pop into your mind. We start to think about the others. We are bounded by those kind of thinking, too much doubts. I would not say it is materialistic, because it need not reach materialistic for this problem. This is life and it is tied with problems.

Life itself is not problematic, but we, the human being create problems for ourselves, unintentionally. 

Another task in life is, dealing with problems.


Recent addiction, kind of depressing (for me), somehow I like it

xoxo,

Is it my kind of month?

Hello guys, it's exactly one week to my birthday hehe. Well, I actually don't feel anything about it, for now, because I have test on that particular day. *cry* I somehow hoping that day comes slowly and taking its own sweet time, because I am too lazy to study for the test. Moreover, I had screwed up the previous one, due to my freaking unforgivable carelessness. Seriously, right now I have to work really hard in order to score an A for Economics 102. I shall bang my head seriously. ARGHHHHHH I shall not ruin my mood anymore. 

These few days I couldn't sleep well due to my flu as I've been having difficulty to breath during my sleeping time. I had really hard time to sleep!!! When I couldn't sleep, my mind tend to think a lot and load too much things, then making myself harder to sleep. wtf As if flu has been my monthly friend, it strikes me once a month! I seriously cannot understand, is it my immune system has weaken or what? I don't want to get flu or any sickness once in a month!! I don't want to wrap 'wantons' once in a month and sacrifice my beauty sleep! Then, it worsen my dark circles and eye bags. WTH Please, only a sickness but brings countless side effects! I wanna cry so hard. Additionally, because of this freaking sickness, I missed out the most important fun with my friends and my first picnic opportunity! Even though I cry so much, it will not bring any changes isn't it? However, it leaves me abundant of regret deep in my heart. *hurt much*

To be very honest, I thought today is Monday! I did something quite silly before I slept yesterday night. I checked my phone alarm to make sure it was set at the right time. It stated there "Wednesday 9.00am". Then, I thought "wth, tomorrow is Monday weyh." So, I set my Monday alarm again. "Okay done!" I checked again on my phone screen. "WTH, why it shows Wednesday again?! I had set the alarm correctly mah!" I doubled check the alarm setting...... Then, I eventually realized, "oh tomorrow is Wednesday." fml so much. *cry* What a shameful thing I did. Hmmph, it was probably because of the flu. Yes, flu!!! FLUUUUUUUUUU. :\ DAMN YOU FLUUUUUUUUUUU! 

So guys, please take a good care of your health, or else you might regret. Health is wealth! lol Especially, during this season which is so hot and humid! Drink more water, less oily food!! Even though I know it's CNY season, there will be a lot of scrumptious delicacy on the table! But please, remember nothing is far more important than health! Once you lose your health, you might lose the most important lifetime of yours. 

Okay, that's all for now! 

Take care and loveya'll! 

xoxo,

It slaps hard on my face.

Hello everyone! Today is Friday, it's everybody's favourite day! Especially, for me because I need not to go for classes! teeheeeee I've been trying to dash off my assignment which due on next Thursday. But, I seriously need some inspirations to continue, I am stuck. *cry* Recently, I'd been through some rough days. Really, BAD HORRIBLE DAY. 

Freaking careless mistakes cost me 50% of my test. Next incidence, I went to the cashier to pay for my drink, I couldn't find my money, even though I kept digging in my purse. I was very sure that I'd notes in my purse, but then found tons of coins yet weren't enough for the drinks. I asked if I could pay by card, but then no. wtf FML It was really a terribly bad day. Then I left the convenient shop with huge embarrassment slapping on my face. After my mom fetched me, I was still searching for that note in my purse... In the END, within 5 minutes, I found it appeared in my purse from nowhere. SERIOUSLY! HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME. I carried the freaking flashback for the entire day, still couldn't get over it. How could I get over within 24 hours, when the most embarrassing thing happened to me. D: And I screwed up my test because of my carelessness, yet not IDK. Despite the unbearable pain and embarrassment are still swirling inside me, but I am getting better each day, as time will make everything better, I hope. 

Everybody definitely has some rough time in life. Only how you define your kind of 'rough time'. All of these are very personal and subjective. Somehow, we tend to judge people's rough time by comparing with our own. Don't we? To be very honest, sometimes I do. This is human nature, but we know it is not right to judge people's life, and yet we are still doing it. We use other people's life to measure ours and so we can define our lives. Somehow, is it right? It depends. There is no definite answer. If you are comfortable by comparing people's life with yours, then go ahead. But better not disrupt others' lives. To me, I think it's unnecessary, because I live my life in my way, there is need not a measurement to define my life. Anyhow, I still doing it, but seldom. HAHAHAHA *hypocrisy neh*

These days the sky are so blue and clear, and seldom rain. The sunlight is burning my skin and the heat is barbecuing my brain. However, I love the night sky of this cloudless weather. I am not sure if your area is able to see countless stars in the night sky, but mine is real damn nice and clear during night time. I can see stars glittering in the clear and unpolluted night sky in these few days. Unpolluted means free from photopollution (光害). My area considered quite rural I'd say, it is somewhat surrounded by a lot of trees, but it is slowly developing in to housing area as well, which makes me really really really sad and disappointed. No more chilling weather during hot day, and gradually will be affected by air pollution too. Development can be good, but mostly bad. It depends on how you develop it. 

Enjoy the starry night while you're still be able to see them glittering in the night sky, soon our sky will be covered by haze because of our selfishness and inconsideration.

that's all, I shall continue my assignment! 

Good luck and take care! 

xoxo,

Yes, it will be another better year. -2015

HALO! I am eventually back!!! woohoo, time flies yeah! This is my first post of 2015 yo! Okay, I am kinda in high spirit right now. LOL Anyway, it is probably my disguise for my coming stressed out week, three tests on next week and assignment to go. wtf  Yet, I am not prepared. wish me tons of luck please.

Okay, I shall not start it with negativity! Last Saturday was a contented day with my potatoes, most importantly, we celebrated hm's birthday which he used to moan about it to us that we never care for his big day! But now we finally proved him wrong, haha. Another thing was Philia eventually showed up! What a great gathering, despite hj is thousands miles away from us, but still we miss him as well lah. 

Everything happened in the blink of eyes. First week of 2015 is heading to its end. WHAT?!! I can't even recall what had happened, how can you pass so swiftly?! Despite of all negatives in 2014, somewhat 2014 was still a pleasant year. So now, 2015, can you make it a better year for all earthlings? I know you can! And you will be. :) 

Hm's big day at Sunway Pyramid.

Bonus from his bday celebration. HAHAHA *shake your booty*

Short video from that night. *pardon for the low quality* 

*actually I have more, but hahaha those are for myself  :P *

We had dinner at Bubba Gump, quite a nice restaurant, regardless of the dimmed lighting, haha. However, the menu is okay for me, quite similar to Chili's & Grill Bar. I guess it is famous for shrimps, I could see quite a variety of shrimp dishes, which I don't really fancy, because I don't fancy shrimps. LOL Anyways, it is another great option for lunch or dinner with friends and family! :) 

End it with my selfie! HAHA 

Ya'know what!? TOMORROW IS FRIDAY! WOOOHOOOOO BEST DAY OF A WEEK! 

Be safe and goodnight! 

xoxo,

2014, You are alright. Please be alright.

So much pain to endure in this year, indeed 2014. Even til the very end of you, the pain is exaggerating. We are trying to recover from all the tragedies that happened and carved endlessly deep in our heart. There is too much to endure. The encounters are too much to handle for a normal person, so then it still happened. 

Some of them would say it is the darkest year of all, but is it true? Yeah, maybe? Probably too many tragedies happened within 365 days, indeed too many. Can we take it? Ironically, we ought to deal with them isn't? Life leaves us no choice, we ought to when it happens, regardless can or not. A lot of lives were gone within seconds. I could not imagine how they feel when they were at the edge of death. How terrified they were. How helpless they were. How their mind would be blown away by what was ahead of them. How lives went on after then. I don't want to imagine all these, even though while typing these, my mind and emotion are working out for it. 

Perhaps, our pain will be gone soon, somewhat the pain will still be there forever, especially every time 2014 is mentioned. Isn't? To me, it will be. The pain will return every time it is mentioned and it reminds of fragile lives. All the memories about them will rush into my mind without any doubts. Admittedly, the pain I feel will be so tiny little compared to those who involved. But, my mind just can't take off from all the tragedies happened. How can all these happened so fast? So heartlessly. What can we do? Can all these be avoided? There is endless questions swirling in my mind right now. Sadly, there will be no one to answer them. Nor I will get the answer I yearn for.

What's the answer? Who can bring it to me? 

It is almost the end of 2014. Less than 36 hours from now, then 2014 will reach its end. And all its remarkable scars will be remembered for eternity. What a fearful year I would say. Fear of death, lives, and helpless.

Tomorrow is the last 24 hours of 2014. What will happen next? 

Irrationally, I would ask, what do you want from us? However, on second thought, it isn't 2014's fault. 2014 is only the period that record what had happened in itself. It is obviously not its fault for what had happened. But, pardon for my immaturity, I really want to erase everything that happened. 

Indeed, there is no use to mourn over what had had happened. Just my heart sink every time when I see the news. All the flashbacks of 2014 leave my heart sink for a very long time. Then, my mind starts to think into a wrong way, immature way. As to try to escape from the pain and sorrow.

Lives had been taken for what kind of reason? Accidents are the most innocent and horrid way to take lives away, isn't? Lives were taken without knowing what's the reason nor the cause. How scary it is. Yet sometimes, accidents show how weak we could be. 

There is so much to take in. Lately, I've been thinking, why are we carry on living? Aren't we digging our own graves as the time elapses? 

Those who live, carry on; Those who'd gone, rest in peace.

Maybe I shall stop and take a break. 

Take care and be safe to all.

xoxo,

It's another Warm and Colourful Day

Halo guys! Christmas is less 48 hours away, and I have class tomorrow which is Christmas Eve. Planning to do my nails with my bij. hahaha Since my piano lesson is on break now, I shall granted myself a little wish! Ohh? I am a little Santa for myself. lol Actually, everyone is a little Santa for themselves. Isn't it? hehehe

Frankly, I am supposed to do my assignments, but I am extremely lazy and my mind is exhausted after a long day of classes. (obviously, excuses eh) Okay, I am procrastinating because I think I deserve some break mah..... Just a random short update. I am not home yet, still outside waiting for my sista to finish doing her stuff. So, yeap, here I am crapping with my lappy.

Assignments, assessments and quizs are killing me. LOL Even though, I am barely able to deal with them, but still it is December! All my past Decembers were spent so leisurely and no existence of assignments nor schooling. But now, I gotta go for my second semester on December while everybody is having their holiday. Life is apparently changing for me. And I shall try to accept those changes. It's time to move on. Unlike old days when I was allow to slack, haha and without worrying anything, just sit back and slack. 

Life is genuinely different now. It is not that I just realized, just that, I am so reluctant to take in all these. I am growing up and closer to the society, where most risks and schemes are hiding. lol I may exaggerate a little bit, yet still outside there are so many people we yet to meet. Different kind of people, various problems and challenges. 

What ahead of my is a genuine unknown.

I might be fret, and anything could happen. But right now, I hope I can get through anything. Well, I am not feeling weak or anything negative, just that sometimes, I need to boost up my inner motivation in order to make me stronger little by little. I'll never know how the future will go, because I am not a fortuneteller, 

Life is never easy.  

"Everything will be okay in the end. If it is not okay, it is not the end." - John Lennon

Anyhow, we must move on and live til the end. Life is a riot of colour and hopes are meant to be there for us. 

Let's try to puke some rainbows in your life! HAHAHAHAHAHA Perhaps, you will feel better!

That's all! May you have a pleasant day! loveya And millions thank you to anyone who finishes reading the entire post! 

xoxo,

Let's have a Bites@LakeField

Heyyo imaginees, I am back again! I just finished watching Sword Art Online Season 2 aka Gun Gale Online. Honestly, I love watching it so much, either season one or two, SAO is another best anime I'd ever watch after Inuyasha! Fairy Tail is getting worse in each episode. I am disappointed at the plot right now, as if they are trying to drag the story and getting boring, but still I will keep tracking on the story because I just can't stop in the half way. *sigh* Sad to see Fairy Tail becoming so boring, because the starting was so exciting and fascinating! Maybe the it's too long, like hundreds of episodes til now, I guess. lol 

Okay I shall start the real deal here! :) 

So, last Thursday me and bij had our lunch after our class. To be very frank, I'm quite frustrated by the time table, lol, because Wed and Thurs we only go for 2 hours of class. WHAT. Really wasting my time. *cry* So, Amanda suggested to have lunch at Sungei Besi since she was driving. hehehe 

Then, here we were Bites Cafe @ Lake Field (fb).

Bites Cafe @ Lake Field, Sungei Besi.

The interior design is comfortable and cute.

(left to right) Amanda, Nicole, me, Natalie!

Beef Carbonara - The best dish of all. 

The sauce was creamy and wasn't too cheesy, just nice! Everything was up to my expectation. yay!

The Swiss.

I found that potato rosti was quite interesting! 

First bite of the rosti, the scent of green spring onion was just nice and wouldn't overtake the potato itself. Scramble Egg and Beef bacon were still okay.

Egg Benedict with smoked salmon.

Well, it wasn't up to my expectation. I couldn't taste the smoked salmon somehow, and the poached egg was a meh.

Waffles with vanilla ice cream, caramelized bananas and berries.

This was completely a MEH. The waffle wasn't soft yet crispy.? Was it supposed to be crisply hard? 

The only winner was the vanilla ice-cream, it somehow tasted a bit salty, but still good. I could see the vanilla seeds in the ice-cream, as you can see it's made of the real vanilla not extract. *happy*

Maybe I shall try the ice-cream itself! They have homemade ice-cream, like pandan kaya, Horlicks and so on. slurrrrrrrrrp! Hopefully there will be a next visit, for ice-creams. HAHAHA

I shall update about my early Christmas party on Christmas Eve yo! :) HEHEHE

Stay tuned people! 

That's all, HAPPY SUNDAY!

xoxo,

Before it ends

Heyyo imaginees! I had a great night with my lovely potatoes yesterday! Millions thanks to Eric's family for putting so much effort on this early Christmas party! I feel really bad and guilty when we didn't manage to finish all the scrumptious delicacy! 

It's been awhile since my last update! I am so sorry for not keeping my blog updated, my second semester just started and I got my first assignment and 'practice quiz' on the second day. How awesome was that right... lol Obviously, this shows that my second semester isn't gonna be as easy as it seems, despite only three subjects. Hopefully, Economics 102 will not kill me too badly. I am working hard on my assignment right now, I guess I am. hahaha Less than three weeks to finish that 20% assignment. D: I wanted to join the Korean Buddy Program, but it seems quite impossible as my second month of my semester probably gonna be occupied with assignment deadlines and assessments. And that program is quite time consuming, D: But I really want to join, somehow impossible.

A short update on 14th of December, Sunday! My relatives came to visit my uncle and so my family went to join them as well! Then, we brought them to visit KLCC! 

My little cute but naughty niece.

Went too visit Petronas Gallery and they happened to have an exhibition on the Street Art in KL!

That creepy smile. HAHAHA 

Trying to be casual but ended up pretty awkward HAHAHA #fail

Then, I chose to be like this instead. *wink*

End it with this epic photo of the year :)

 Hope you guys have a contented weekends! 

Gonna update my visit to Bites Cafe@LakeField with bij and early Christmas Party soon! yay!