There must be some times, when you question yourself, "why do I chose to live?". If you don't, then great, you're probably living your life in a fulfilling way. Congratulations!
But I do often thought of that question, because I'm just curious about the reasons of making such decision. Maybe, my life currently isn't really living up to my expectation, and I should literally reflect on that.
Somehow, things will definitely trigger such thought, "why do I chose to live?". Sometimes, this really put me into deep thoughts, because of the mixed feeling I have. Why do I chose to live? I have literally no idea, as I was told to live. Have you ever think of the objectives to live? Like in depths. And now I realized that I didn't really live up to my life, in a meaningful way.
When I was in primary school, I had no idea what's living was and going to school was playing a huge part of my life, so I lived. Until 12 years old, confronting UPSR, I lived for straight A's which I never would dream of. And I did it, unexpectedly. Then I realized I can actually achieve something, I'm not that useless. Then, slowly picking up some shatters of my confidence. Proceeding to secondary school, I lived for studies again and my music academy. It was kind of stressful, as I recall now. It was the moment when I found out I made a mistake in my life, but still I carried on, because I couldn't afford to keep losing. I know the passion needs to be freed, yet not so soon. So for PMR, I managed to get through and lived up to my objective; yet SPM made me come to a sense that it was time to return to reality as I might be reaching my limits and doing something that mismatched to my ability, interests, and life goals.