No regrets, never.

Aloha people, hehe, I am here again. 

Okay, first of all, I hope I will not crying over split milk due to the F-problem. I was surprised, when I discovered that I was so afraid of losing. =,= I am so useless. 

I did not ever expect this is happening to me. I never afraid of losing F. If someone really important to me, indeed, I will feel frighten, but as for that, I think I will not. However, unexpected reaction. wtf, maybe I should rammed my head onto the wall.

Then, after a long 'turning my head', the conclusion is made, I will not crying over a split milk anymore. That is not worth for me to sacrifice so much, all the things that I've done for that is more than enough. No regrets. Losing that means nothing to me, honestly. But of course, if that decided to change, indeed, I will keep the friendship til the day it can. 

I don't want to have such a f like that, I don't know why that will become like this, because of the boy? 

If it really does, then I think that is a brainless person. I am not a heartless person, but everything is true. 

Changed because of a boy. Ya, good deed, good change, you got a good brain. Idiotic person ever! Please filter everything before you do, think and speak. thanks.

Attitude problem. That always does, never think to change. How good that behave like. Respect is the most basis as for a human! Unfortunately, that never. Maybe I expect too high on that, I should never do that, never.

Then, I had round the clock to think about what can I found some 'good' in that, unfortunately, it comes out with no answers. I really try my best, think as a outsider. No answer at all. I had recurred every moment, every thing, but....

I know that too well, I had see through that. Everything, the real face, the real that. Such a disappointment.

Outsiders will never know what's happening, because they only seen through the 'surface' of that, never know, never understand that deeper. Hence, it's normal if they think I am heartless. I am fine with that, I am an understanding person, unlike that.

I am not wrong. Never regret. 

If you think I am cruel, you are wrong. You are not me, you will never ever understand what I am feeling now.