too-much

Finally, I can feel the stress which will come after this holiday - Form 4 is approaching, as well as my old friend, STRESS. My mom just reminded me, the tuition for certain subjects. I am so afraid of tuition actually, although my friends told me it is fun. LOL, but somehow, I couldn't overcome it. I am afraid of tuition, honestly, I hate tuition. 

I never wanted to be bond with tuition in my whole life. If I require to tuition, is that mean school is useless? LOL *needless to say.

When students had reach Form 4, indeed, everything is different from before. School subjects, exam formats and so on. I can feel the pressure coming from all the changes, although it is still not happen yet. Woefully, I suppose, the stress might be too heavy for me to handle. Imma going to burst into tears and rammed my head again. *blushed.

I am so concerned about all these changes will bring me into a whole new life?! The pressure is coming ahead of me. I am freaking out. 

I was trying so hard to run away, but my legs aren't listening to me, they aren't move at all. They are as if stick onto the floor, no matter how much strength I use to pull my legs off, it isn't work. Sadder but wiser, it teaches me, not to run away. Confront and overcome it. 

But, can I? 

I am being so coward, of course I do not want to hide behind someone's dress. The persistence of being strong and bold is gradually bleaching off.

Unbelievably, I am going to have tuition next year, perhaps. I broke my promise to not have tuition in the entire school life. lol. I am insane, ain't I? Needless to say. 

Maybe, I think too much? 

Hope it will be far more better than I expect.