"Are you the one?"

Halo, I don't know what I'm gonna say. lol And actually I am worn out because of some vigorous exercise in this early morning, but I really enjoyed it and it turned out quite surprising to me. :) It's not the matter of win or lose, we gain more than that. The nearer to the SPM, the nearer to the end of my secondary school life. I am wondering, what will happen after I've graduate from my secondary, because I'll never be able to go back to that 5 years anymore, nor my 6 years of primary school life. I kept wondering. 

My life is writing down all my history, all my stories, which will never reappear in future. Time never go backwards, you know. And because of all my missing towards the childhood memories, I started to play my childhood games, like bubbles. Yup, basically it's one of the way to release stress, even though some of you might find it a bit childish, but who cares. The desired naive will never found in nowadays, as we have to deal with a lot of ordeals and challenges which will undoubtedly change our personality. It is normal, very not uncommon, because influences from anywhere will genuinely give us some big shot. I dream a lot, A LOT. And I don't give a damn to bother them, lol, because I know some of them are actually quite nonsense and not practical. Well, I do believe in 'impossible is possible', but Idoubt to apply it on myself, because I know myself very well. Psychologically, what we think about ourselves will affect our personality, perhaps? haha

I dream and think. I dream to become a trillionaire, an ultimately talented person aka genius, a super beauty, a superhero, and so on. I even dreamt to become an anime character. *okay, that might be a little abnormal, but not anymore. loll* Dream can be anything, there is no limits. However, when I think about all of them, none of them is practical. HAHA, maybe trillionaire will do? nah...... I don't know what will happen in future, but I hope everything is gonna be smooth and satisfying. Most importantly, I hope my dream can come true, I mean the practical one. - Fulfill all my desires. Not dream, but everything I wanna do and accomplish which I can't achieve right now. There is too many excuses that stop me from doing it. I really hope that those desires are gonna be fulfilled in future, because those are my dream since I was young. Whoa, on the second thought, I am not kid anymore, I'm a teenager. Time flies uh.

There might be a lot of unsatisfactory appearing within me which I keep them down at the bottom. I don't want to bring them up because I think it's useless to let people know. Or else people might be misunderstood my true meaning. I don't want this to happen, as it might take years or decades for me to explain these loathsome issues. So what's the point to bring it up, right? 

Looking back to my childhood, things were so easy and simple, unlike right now, everything is so freaking different and complicated. I hope I can be indifferent, but the price is too big. But someday, I will, when I have no burdens and worries anymore. I can be carefree and live my life in the way I want. 

Looking uneasily yet eagerly to my future, and ask,

" Are you the One? "

Jam. loves